Bambina

/me writes the name "Bambi" on the blackboard. This, ladies and gents, is our topic for today. Bambina was my slave for five months. I met her in early March at the Ranch, the poor girl couldn't even sit down. I tried to help her and have done so quite often, whenever she was facing some trouble with sl.
But that's not really important, is it? What is important is what went on between us. Well, it seems she had had a few bad experiences then and was looking to give herself in a serious d/s relationship. I had never done that before, but was willing to take on a challenge. And a challenge she was...not exactly the easiest sub i have dealt with. However, we got into the relationship and it got better the longer it lasted. Until she went off for her five-week holiday. We had (i think) a verrry good last time then, took her off to some ballroom dancing, because i wanted to make a lasting impression. Then ....weeks of more or less nothing. I did play for a few days with someone, whose name i have now forgotten, it ended in a less than pleasant way, but apart from that i was making use of the time on my hands, sold my house because of my unpleasant neighbor and after a while got a new place. When bambi finally got back i was not even prepared for it (one day early too), i was busy building and setting up the new, much bigger place. So, I am sad to say, i did not have much time for her. She seemed to take it well though and we only met occasionally for a few day. On the fifth day i decided she deserved a treat and i a break from building. So we met at Clara's and just as i was setting the scene, she came out with it...
She asked for release.
Said i wasn't teaching her anymore and one or two more things...had met someone new. Then we even got interrupted by a phone call. A few days later we talked again and it turned out that she had felt un-welcome, neglected....as if i didn't want her anymore. However, she hadn't told me any of that before, not before it was too late. So she went just the way i had (i'm sure of that!) told her not to go, to come to me if she had a problem so we could discuss things and allow me to improve or change things. Sure, it had never been easy for me, not being an experienced domme, at least not in a long-term thing, and i had contemplated more than once releasing her...to get more freedom for myself. But the thing is, I get attached as we all do, and especially over a space of almost half a year of daily meetings and talks... Yes, i admit i felt and still do, cheated - it will take a while longer to get rid of that bitter aftertaste.
A few days later i saw from her profile she had gotten collared again and took her off my friends list. Had a last talk and said good-bye.
/me wipes the blackboard clean.
trying to move on, have to anyway.

On the upside ...from what i have learned about her new mistress i guess she has found just what she was looking for. Good luck, bambi.
/me throws sponge into the basket, sits down and tries to clear her mind of unpleasant memories...
This entry is meant as a final point in saying good-bye. I hope that i can now really move on.
Released her on Aug, 31.