Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Fun with Metaxa

The other day I was strolling around in Mystical Bondage where I often hang out since it's just a great relaxing place. There I met this woman who had in her profile nothing but the following line: "Philosophy and spanking are all you need. Disagree?" Of course I got curious and we started chatting - and had one of the wittiest discourses I've ever had in SL. I even learned a new word, even though I've already half-forgotten it again...it's the longest word in the English language and means something like nothingness...hmmm, what was it again? Flaucinihili something.... Hmmm, ah yes, Google stands ready to help as always. The word is "flaucinaucinihilipilification".
Edit, 12 Dec:
Upon re-reading that post it seems pretty weak all of a sudden, as if I missed the point. Well, here goes: I always find it refreshing to talk to people who have a bit more on their mind than just bondage... or sex. Not that I had anything against that, mind you. It's just that an intelligent conversation leaves a far deeper impression than cheap pixel sex (ok, not my thing anyway). Also, clever people tend to be great role-players. Mmmmm....

New chapter...closed

Hey there, it's been a while since I last posted. Well, this should have become a very happy one, but things turned out differently. You see, a few weeks back I met a girl named Star while I was at Organica for some nice psy-trance tunes. We sort of hit it off pretty well and spent lots of time together. She also turned out to be a dominant and wanted to collar me, but I turned her down. Instead we became lovers, and that was not only a first for me, but also just great... We were even talking about partnering. However, the other day things started going "south", as my dear friend Vendree would put it. That evening, which had started out very nicely too, turned out to be a last rendezvous :/ Well, I hope it wasn't the last time ever, but one thing is for sure, we're going separate ways. Guess we just weren't made for each other.

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Strange Stories, pt.3

Now this is really weird.
Like four weeks ago I was at Hypnodolls, doing nothing really but waiting for interesting people to chat with. After a while, a guy turned up and inquired if any of the present had seen some Thailand guy or knew him. In fact he asked if someone would take a parcel that he had on him and give it to the other guy once he turned up, because he had to go to some class. I didn't know the guy he referred to, so didn't speak up. The only one who really said anything was a woman, a hypno-domme I think, who knew the guy, but didn't want to take the parcel. So I sat there and secretly asked myself why he did not just IM the other guy to meet with him or dropped the thing into his inventory using the profile. But since it seemed soooo obvious I didn't say anything, thinking this guy was a little strange, which in fact he was. Also several times some strange messages appeared on screen about some wings being readied. Then the guy disappeared. And I mean disappeared, he did not teleport away or log off. Somehow I felt as if I was in some Casablanca-type movie, with a spy seeking help to transfer his secret files. Only two minutes later, the Thailand guy turned up and asked around if someone had seen the first guy. So I told him what had happened and gave him the chat log of the scene. He was obviously relieved, said that the parcel had not been transferred yet (and I wondered how on earth he knew that) and went away, seemingly to meet the other guy. Now I was thinking someone was playing a prank on me and was almost certain the first guy would surely turn up again in a minute asking for second guy. I think I even heard him say something, again those strange wing messages appeared, and then second guy came back. He had acquired the parcel in the meanwhile, thanked me for my help and told me a little about the parcel. Only then did the picture become clear. The wings I had seen messages of were in fact the parcel. And those wings were very special, according to Mr Thailand even one of a kind, enabling the wearer to break all laws of physics and travel at extremely high speeds. And that the first guy probably just had not thought of transferring the wings via the SL inventory, because he hardly ever dealt with transfers that way.
In any case, that story was my personal highlight of the day and kept me amused for hours.... hehe.

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Strange Stories, pt.2

Just a quick one that. Trust me, it's a bit funny too.
It happened like three months ago, I was at Mystical Bondage and slightly bored, so I thought I'd walk over to Damsel, do some window-shopping. It was one of those days when SL is really SNAFU, I think right after an update and nothing was working correctly.
So I walked over, saw an av in the middle of the street who was obviously just rezzing - still all white. I walked up to that person and watched. The rezzing took longer and longer, but the av just wouldn't rez. So we exchanged a few words and she then decided to relog. Since I had nothing to do really I only went a few paces further and waited for the person to return. Finally, the av rezzed and turned out to be an attractive girl. And then - completely out of the blue - she said she wanted to be my slave. I was slightly dumbfounded, but after some talking, I was somewhat convinced she was serious and took her with me.
That was Esme, an italian girl. She was never with me much, though, said she was a "free soul", which according to her book, meant she would only come when she felt like it. That and the fact that her English was not that good, sort of prevented me from really getting close. Well, we had some fun and I think I taught her a few things about BDSM, but sadly, it never did much for me. After some time she went away, had found a better mistress than me it seems. Oh well.

Sunday, October 28, 2007

Taking stock

So I'm six months old now. A week ago I had my half-year rez day and would have loved to celebrate, but sadly, that was out of the question what with the then-current goings-on. But still it's a time to think about all that has happened and also about where I'm going.
Right now I'm completely free of any obligations, pets, mistresses or close personal relations. Rylla has gotten collared and seems to be very happy with her Mistress. Lou is history (see previous post) and Madi, well, officially she's still on trial, but she's been having RL problems for quite some time now that keep her from SL. But she is willing to come back, once time and RL permit. Oh yeah, and then there is my dear friend and hypno-sub Becky, but she also seems quite busy RL-wise, hasn't been on in a while.
My partylife is going strong at the moment, and going out to dance is really cool - listening to some DJ spinning wicked sounds and being among like-minded is just great. So right now I concentrate on that and have also made some friends already. Also, the idea of finding some fitting play partner there seems quite attractive - so far nothing has turned up, but you never know...
The BDSM stuff I'm surely not giving up, I am starting to feel the urge again, which is a good thing ;) After all, that was the primary motivation for me to come and stay in SL. And so far, two leads have turned up: Firstly Teena, who had to make a decision: Becoming a mistress in her own right or get fully collared by her Mistress. She has decided for the latter, but we're still talking and there might still come something out of it, but it's too early to talk about that. And then there's Ven, who is seeking a mistress. Haven't really talked to her yet, but she's definitely an interesting person (talk about putting Gromet's Plaza in the web tab of her profile, lol). In a few days I'll know more, I guess.

Thursday, October 25, 2007

Saying good-bye

First of all: No, I'm not leaving.
Second: I was forced to say good-bye to my favorite sub/slave, Lou. Now it didn't come as that much of a surprise, but still it left me with a bad feeling. I had been very fond of Lou, from our very first beginnings. She was a complete newbie to BDSM and I was happy to show her the ropes. Some time ago, however, she started being on less and less and then told me she had to leave for a while, because she was assigned to a "new project" by her company. Okay, so I've waited for her to return and occasionally checked the group info to see if she had been on. Also sent her an e-mail sometime, which was never answered. So last week I found she had been on, but still no message at all. Kept checking, found she was on repeatedly and then caught her online. IMed her and we met. She then owned up and told me it was all lies, everything she told me. Lou was only a facade to satisfy her curiosity about the "darker places of SL", as she put it. And now that her curiosity was satisfied, she was packing up, transferring her stuff to her main account. There was more, but I'm not going into that here and now... So that was the end, we said bye and, even if I'm not a vengeful person, I have to say I don't feel a bit sorry for her feeling guilty. In fact it makes me smile, if only a little bit.
Thirdly, shortly before the episode with Lou, I had to ask Miss Carr to release me. I'm sorry to say that, but we didn't work out. She wanted a lot of control over my SL by setting up rules and stuff, but sadly, we (read: I) never got quality time in exchange. In effect it became more of a burden than anything and was really killing my SL fun. Also it was having adverse effects on my RL. So the only logical consequence was to ask for release.
With these two fresh experiences in my mind, I'm taking a time-out from all things kinky and have re-discovered my love of music and go out to partyyyy a lot. And I have to say I should have done that earlier, a LOT earlier. Right now my personal favs are House-Divaz and some of the more underground goa/psy-trance places.

Edit, 28 Oct.:
I should add that I am at least thankful that Lou told me the truth - if only at the last minute and not quite voluntarily. That saves me some worrying...

Friday, October 19, 2007

The strangest stories, pt.1

Now, the strange stories are sort of part of my mission statement. ;) And since I'm six months old today (which makes me more or less an oldie here in SL), I'm going to tell a few of the weirdest tales that I've experienced so far.
Let's begin with the latest episode:
Almost exactly 3 months ago I met a girl at Marine's little shop (home of Realrestraint) and she sort of invited me to help her try them out ;-) So one of us offered friendship and we parted in the hopes of getting together some time. Well, as it happens so often in SL, that just didn't happen: Neither of us ever sent a message. A few days ago now I finally got up the nerve to contact her, had been thinking about it for days, always found an excuse to stall this potentially embarrassing task though. So when I ran out of excuses and had time, too, I opened an IM window and started writing a hello message, which of course again took a bit to complete (can't just simply write "hello Lilia", now can I? Well, history tells us I could, after like half an hour lol).
I then hit Return and waited... after 15 mins, she finally answered. Yay! After some talking I tried to tp her, but alas, the button was grayed out... turns out she had taken me off her friends list while I was on the laborious process of writing my hello message. *lol*

Monday, October 15, 2007

The Mistress Thang, pt.2

Maybe this is the right time to reflect on my old Mistress.
It all started innocently enough. I had sort of recovered from the failure with my very first mistress and did want to go out and meet some new people. Right then, my vanilla friend Izzy wanted to join me, so I told her that I wanted to go to Mystical Bondage, a nice open sim. So we went there and after only a short while I sort of stopped to talk to her in IM, looking directly at a pair of women who were standing a little off the track and seemingly talking. This took a little while and although I was not really paying attention to these two, I was aware it might be construed as staring. Then one of them beckoned me closer and asked me what I was looking at, the other one left. So I explained. We started talking and it soon became clear this was a domme. So she started explaining a little on what she was RPing and then bit me... right then and there. And I had a new Mistress. That's how easy and fast it all happened.
After that we went somewhere and I serviced her, till she ... you know what. And in RL too, as she told me. We had a very good time and I have to say I really liked her. And she loved to play poker too - which was still allowed at that time. So for a short time we spent lots of time together until she had a RL accident, came back, and then, after a very awkward meeting, went off completely - for four weeks. I was suffering big time, couldn't explain to myself where, how, why she had gone.
Then she returned and she explained to me what happened - big RL changes. However she was hardly on at the times I was and, as I remember, even thought I wanted to be released. After that was finally cleared up it could have become all good again - but it didn't. The very last time I talked to her, I think on July 9, she told me there were floods in her region in the southern U.S. and I think she alluded to getting out barely or something. So we said good-bye and that's the last thing I ever heard of her. And I can only hope you are well, Mistress Feliciti :) So I waited another four weeks for her to return and then wrote her a letter, to say good-bye.
End of story.

Sunday, October 14, 2007

Feelings

This draft was almost forgotten until I went through my archive today. It is being posted for the sake of completeness here.

Isn't it strange how deeply the goings-on in SL affect you in RL? Maybe not directly, but emotionally. I know, there are some - or is it many? - who really only play around, have fun and if something is not the way they want it, drop it. Next!
Well, guess I'm a little different. Knowing that I am interacting with real people with a wealth of experiences, opinions and very different ways of doing things makes this a very personal experience for me. And so, if something good happens I find myself being elated in RL too. But the same is true if something bad happens.
Like last night when I was waiting for Mistress to return. Went off to go to a store, should have been back soon. So I waited, played around with a few things to keep me entertained and ... waited. For a full hour. Then out of sheer boredom I started talking to a friend in IM. And suddenly it dawned on me that I was really pissed off, frustrated over being kept waiting so long. Waste of time. So I logged for the day and went to bed, only to find myself still in a pretty bad mood when i got up in the morning. Darn, that's not how I want my SL to be.
And now at the late Saturday evening I'm still entertaining bad thoughts. Somehow I feel trapped, not wanting to cross Mistress and yet, knowing she's not around for the whole weekend I feel I can't do what I really want to do, play. After all, when I play it might end up with some sex. Most of the time it won't, but there is a definite chance it might. And I'm not allowed to do that. Great.
So all I can do right now is wait... and wait. For that darn time when Mistress might finally have more time. What did she say... disgruntled or antsy. Yes, I guess that describes pretty well how I feel right now.

Thursday, October 4, 2007

The Mistress Thang, pt.3

Yea, I know, I can hear you in my mind: Where the hell is part 2? Easy. It's not written yet. Will do that when I have the right mindset for it. For now there are other things on my mind.
Let's see... Again it comes back to that visit at the Playground (and yea, I'm still stuck with the CARP mission on lvl.3 of the Black Hole). As I described in my very first post (Waiting...) I approached this apparent slave there who was going to be a mistress ... and looking for a slave.
Well, we met again shortly thereafter and she explained about how she intended to play (very much like the RL lifestyle she herself lives) and that she would not take on a slave just like that but that there were several potentials and she would choose one or maybe two. But that would not mean instant collaring as I might have expected (not really knowing anything much about collaring myself), but instead the candidate would be offered a "Collar of Consideration" and that would mark the start of a trial period. Only at the end of this would the "candidate" then become collared for real. And there would be a ceremony on this occasion.
So yes, I did pass the initial phase (with flying colors I think, and I am also a little proud of that) and really was offered her collar of consideration, which has been locked around my neck ever since. Meanwhile we have gotten to know each other pretty well, have even exchanged a lot of RL information, and I wouldn't hesitate to say that I feel very comfortable with her. For now I am looking forward to the end of October, which will hopefully result in spending more quality time together and some time after that probably a collaring ceremony. ;)
I'll keep you guys posted...

Burning down the house




Hehe, this post is an exception in that it's about plain old fun. And about music. And about dancing. The other day I went to Burning Life, the SL counterpart to Burning Man (yea, that festival in the desert where it gets ALL crazy). Had been there on another day, but there were no people or rather, I hadn't managed to find them. This time around though I grabbed an event calendar and eventually ended up at the Burning of the Temple event. And hey, it was very cool. Tons of people dancing everywher, flashy light show and some nice beats to go. Later I was even joined for a bit by Miss Carr ;)). it was reaaal fun! Yeeehaaaw!!! LOL
Also I've taken a ton of pics of the event and the art on display all around. Only problem with these is I accidentally included my HUD elements in the pics so you see my AO icon everywhere, except for the few pics that I've cropped to size. My apologies for that.

In case you're interested in seeing all of them, I've posted them here: http://picasaweb.google.com/Chili.Theas/BurningLife?authkey=XhGZt49elhk

A New friend :))

Shame, shame, shame... it seems like ages since I last posted. But since I am free for a while now I intend to do an update. And for simplicity's sake I will start with this post that I drafted a while ago. Somehow it hasn't made it to the blog yet, so here goes...
While I was at the Bondage Playground some time ago (yes, the Black Hole quest) I met not only a potential mistress, but also a woman who is fast becoming a good friend. I have to admit I was initially quite shocked when I looked at her profile and found that she's into breath play - not only in SL but also in RL!
But since that time we have talked and met several times and she's just very nice and intelligent. We have also played some and though her style was too harsh for me (talk about a slave-goad delivering electric shocks), I enjoyed our time together very much. Another switch... and next time it will be me playing with her - and I intend to do a few things with her, hehehe. But much more important than that, she's just very open and talks about RL without any hesitance. And that made me open up also - a thing that I rarely do in SL. Because usually I stick to the guideline of keeping SL and RL quite separate. Thank you for your friendship!
[Edit Oct, 4 '07]
Well, right now Yarika is not on that much, but when she's on it's always great to talk to her. And wow, she DOES mix SL and RL... seems she's on a bit of a power trip. Just take care, wouldn't want you to disappear some day...

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

Chili subs... not

Hmmm.... ever since Mistress went missing (and to be honest even before that) I hardly get to sub anymore. For a sub switch that's quite unfortunate, but well, what can I do? Go on searching I guess...
It's just that I find it hard to do. For one thing I hate putting myself on the "Meat Market", as I call it. That means putting on restraints and assume a submissive pose in one of "those" places , especially the Bondage Ranch, until someone takes interest. Or approach a potential Mistress of course. That's how and where I met my very first mistress, and to be honest, it was a total failure. (you can read about that in "The Mistress Thang. pt.1") Also I simply find it hard to approach someone and ask them to dominate me, since I am basically a rather shy person. And when I do, it often results in failure.
For example I met this domme/mistress at the Bondage Playground. I approached her and she seemed mildly interested. After a bit of fiddling, because I stupidly didn't even remember how to kneel for her (I had already stopped wearing my collar at the time, which would have made it easy, since this is loaded with animations), she gave me one so i could at least assume a decent submissive position for her (have a load in my inventory, but just didn't think right then). But when she discovered I was still owned she lost interest, saying she didn't want to be accused of stealing slaves (hey, a new owner was not on my agenda then, i only wanted to have a little fun) and since I didnt't really feel that good with her, I stopped it then and there.
Another time I approached a different mistress and it felt quite nice talking to her. However, in the middle of our get-to-know-you conversation, she poofed (got kicked out of SL as happens frequently) and didn't return - ever. It was only a short while ago that i discovered she hid from me (yea, turn off visibility on the friends list, ugh, how i hate that). Oh well.
As far as i remember my real Mistress returned soon after that, but was only on at times when i couldn't make it, except for a few chats. Soon after that she disappeared for the second time and hasn't returned since (yea, all that will be in part 2 of The Mistress Thang). And when she disappeared i also went into hiding for a long while and barely got out of the house except to meet friends occasionally.
Next is/was a switch I met at a store (oh, how i love chance meetings like that; these always seem to turn out the most interesting, hehehe). We found us to be quite compatible since she's also into latex and into a sensual kind of bdsm. So we became friends and had a good time together. Playing we only managed once, and i have to say it was a very nice scene - god, that Realrestraint blindfold is a real pain in the neck since that last update, and she had me sweating in rl trying to accomplish basically easy movements blindfolded (there is a tiny hole that allows interaction, but since the update it's no longer located in the middle but on the bottom of the screen and when you click there, sl's camera jumps and you have to readjust it every single time, duhh) the only drawback was that it had to end a little prematurely... However, shortly thereafter she got collared by her favorite dom and had some problems with her comp. Only now it seems she's no longer interested in playing or - for the most time - even talking to me. For now, I keep that under unresolved issues, but I hate being ignored...

Edit, 9/12/07:
Issue resolved. I sent her a long IM, and I have to admit maybe it was a bit rude - not on intention though. Anywas, she was right in my face, furious, saying she had never promised to be my babysitter, kicked me off her friends list and muted me all in one go.
Alright, I can live with that. :)
The only drawback is that this post has now grown even longer.
Dear Reader, I vow to be shorter in future ;)

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

Feline's Fantasies

I have been reading erotic (bondage) stories for a long time and I have always found it difficult to keep track of good authors or to remember which one was especially good, since there are just so many and few websites allow for easy access. The other day, however, I very accidentally stumbled over the name Laura Feline and found her web-site.
Wow, these stories are just what the doctor ordered. Self-Bondage with a twist, two lovely and sometimes slightly evil women playing solo or with each other and having lots of glorious sex. Yummy. I haven't counted the stories, but I've been reading every day for over a week now and so far, have liked most of the stories very much. If you don't know this site, go check it out - it's a must in my opinion and also it's no wonder Feline was voted "BEST BONDAGE WRITER of the Year 2005".
Enjoy ... and I have an inkling after reading some of the stories you'll see clover clamps in a whole new light ;-))

Wednesday, September 5, 2007

Cool News

The past week has brought interesting developments. First I met Madi, a very nice sub who was ditched by her Mistress and came back to SL after a longer break. She posted to a group I've subscribed (think it was "sub/slaves of Second Life") and sounded like she needed someone to talk and give her a hug. So I responded and we met at Apollo's (in case you've never been to the Apollo Sim, go see it, it's simply amazing and my very favorite place) and talked for a bit. She is very nice and likable. The next day she met my pets and, even though I didn't want to in the beginning, I have now taken her on trial as my third pet (and yeah, I wonder how to take care of them all).
Also while doing my quest at the Bondage Playground (see "Waiting...") I met this slave who had in her profile (always check profiles, it's a bounty of information) that she was seeking a slave and had her latex catsuit welded to her body by her Mistress - yummy. So I talked to her, even though the situation was a little bizarre at first: I was wearing the Mistress Playground title, because the cage I needed to get into had been left locked and she looked like the sweetest slave, kneeling on the ground. And here I was, indicating my interest in becoming her slave. We met shortly after, but we didn't manage to talk much since she had to log off. We did, however, talk about timezones, and it seemed to me that we would hardly be able to meet. So after the interview I was left with the thought that this would never work.
I did still intend to talk to her though. And I was quite surprised to see that she IMed me tonight just as I was getting ready to do the CARP quest of my Black Hole tour. After trying it for a bit I gave it up for the moment (got captured, too) and met with her. And she seems quite interested in taking me on. Yay! Sadly, we were again interrupted. Ah well, I have a good feeling for once and after a long time was finally able to feel the excitement creep over my skin again... *smiles*

Saturday, September 1, 2007

The Mistress Thang, pt.1

Oh yes, I've been meaning to write this down for a long time. The story of how I met Mistress. That will be in part two. But first I'm going to tell the story of my first mistress, which sadly was a total failure.
I cannot really say she was bad or incompetent, I actually never got to know her that well. The problem was she never made time. When I met her I felt very sub and also this was my first try at finding a domme or Mistress. So I arrived at the bondage ranch, didn't even get out of the arrival zone, but went down on my knees and then she came in. Looked like a true amazon, wearing swords and stuff. Somehow I think I approached her, uhm, rather threw myself at her. So she took me. On the first night she played with me a little, but in essence that was that. She was very busy, trying to open a club and that, it seems, was her only and top priority. She basically wanted me to dance for her at her club, sent me off to the dance floor and that was it. Oh yes, she also spoke of selling me at a slave auction and wouldn't I like that. To be honest, I didn't say anything at the time, but I was secretly revulsed by the idea. Great. Not my idea of a dom/sub relationship...
I probably should also add here that I was pretty new to SL at the time and had no idea how things worked, especially when it comes to BDSM and such unreal events as slave auctions. It was only over time that I learned that these auctions are usually for a day or two only (and please correct me if I'm wrong here).
So after some time where I didn't go to see her and she largely ignored me, I felt quite unhappy until I finally went to the Bondage Playground and talked to one of the Mistresses there. Sadly I don't remember her name, but I think it may have been SallyJo. I told her how unhappy I was and she counseled me to ask for release. Because running away isn't and probably never will be an option for me. So I did as she told me and, quite nervously, met "her" and told her I wanted to be released. And so she did. Wow, was I ever glad it was finally over.

Thursday, August 30, 2007

Waiting...


Well, this is probably a good a time as any to get started. Right now I'm sitting here at the sky dungeon waiting for a cage to open. Huh? What the hell?! Yes, I'm on a tour of sorts, taking the Black Hole Journey into Submission right now (you can find it on Sarah's Play Island in the Slut Pen) and on level 3 it sends you off to some places where you have to do certain quests.

In the Bondage Playground you have to enter a certain cage and are not allowed to talk until you get out. On the first time around I stupidly said something on chat and had to leave the cage to reset the quest. Of course someone else on the same quest sneaked in... so I had to wait. When I finally got back in, I was doing pretty well. That is until I decided to play with some ball I have lying around my computer. I threw it from hand to hand, dropped it, it fell on my keyboard and of course it hit one of two keys that are loaded with a chat shortcut... I hadn't even known about these, let alone ever used them. *damn* The stupid quest reset again for not shutting up... *sigh*
I had to wait until the cell timer ran out, get out and back in and start from scratch. So now I'm finally in it and decided to do something unrelated (well, almost...) to SL to while away the time. The Playground is practically empty right now, so no other diversions to keep me entertained.
Ah well, first five minutes are over. 25 left, I guess....

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I have been sub, I have been domme, I have a penchant for hypnosis, I have been up and I have been down. But I am always and most importantly - me. Kind, sensitive, loyal and yes - kinky.